12/12/09

Baby was a princess. congratulations Baby and Zaidi! :D

now when are you going to propose to me, Rain? :p

what a life

sadly i'll say, where the hell is this climax im getting?

Talie's birthday II

PICTURES SAID IT ALL.

done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done

WITH FINALS AND HIGH SCHOOL! :DDDDDDDD

rnr mrks stn

KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL KAMAL

EH, RAIN BAH PULA.

presence

good music always makes me feel out of space and at some time where i feel different from others. surely, i was gay and some other mixed emotion that is indescribable but no doubt, my gayness towards the opposite dimension is perfect even when my imagination showed me that i was alone and ripped off from everything without any presence. peculiar yet really inspiring for me. that's when i thought.....

i am going to die soon. like the others.

my mug, your mug, our mug

see that pretty joy-full expression i put on my mug? it is because i got

ONE MORE WEEK TO ABSOfuckingLUTE FREEDOM.

burst

give me a title and ask me to write about fantasies. your spacious paper wont be touch. i seem to have more concept to write about what i had been through on earth. no matter how dreadful, monotonous or perhaps, sweet it was. it is all based on the epic of my journey in this world. that's exactly what i did for my English essay earlier today. so satisfied with English but not History. it was fucking challenging, i cant answer almost all of it. im really upset, i could burst out in any minute.



but a cup of tea would make me feel better.

will work for swex

oh my, look at how skinny and different he was! this was exactamente how he looked like about 4 years ago out side of my window, waving and smirking around, as we both were drifters to each other that minute. but look at us now. so close that we even share our shoes. :p

p/s look at those pierced ears and lips. hahaha. so fucking cute :)

at least this made my morning

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

nervous breakdown

3.34 am : im still awake, not feeling any sleepy with a bunch of books under my nose. i guessed that caffeine just simply worked on me. im taking my first paper of finals in 5 hours. im fucking paralyzed with fear. yes, fear. oh God, even though i was born and lived with empty beliefs but please guide me on this. this is really terrifying, i shall conceal and perhaps disappear. where had the "non-covetous Tasha" been to?

i really feel like EXPLODING.

i am

still with the weird pathetic brows of mine.

i've reached hundred posts

basically, today's the day i stepped out of high school. no more stupid routine, uniforms that looks like an apron and sick ordinances. despite the fact that i have to sit for my finals in i don't know, two days? but anyway, im just so happy that im flipping through my life into another page in less than a month after the finals. im the gayest girl on earth, im so touched of this freedom im getting :')

OHMAIGOT, spm in how many days?! two days? where have i beeeeeeeeeeeeeen?! haha. just screwing, im tecnically anxious about every single paper that im gonna answer. i hope there's gonna be a guardian angel beside me while answering the questions. wish me luck to have at least credits for every single subject. if im lucky, perhaps an A for English and Arts?

99th post

"Friendster ruined my life"

it really did.

paranoia

TASHA ; delusions of persecution

the mafia and his girlfriend

i was stumbling around my folders and LOOKIE WHAT IVE FOUND BITCHESSSSSSSSSS!! ;p

the mafia and his girlfriend.

solace

with all of my concern, i honestly do want to be aware about “the betrayer” that for about 18 years of my living with only one melody. a melody that comforts every of my emptiness. though it is challenging for me to accept the elements that had definitely changed the life of “the melody” with a misfortune luck. as an offspring of yours, i would unquestionably boost to a better living. but im still curious who would be “the betrayer”. maybe, just maybe, “the betrayer” didn't even thought of an offspring from “the melody”? offspring needs her answer. i am one discombobulated teenager.

another phenomena

i know that its "in the scene" now but what's up with most girls trying their best shit to dress like this? no offense but you girls are taking it too high. don't over do it cause i seriously classify you girls as i don't know, pathetic? but you wont give a shit, wont you? :)

peace skanks.

Red dawn in Sydney brings chaos

23 SEPTEMBER 2009

Sydneysiders have woken to a red haze unlike anything seen before by residents or weather experts, as the sun struggles to pierce a thick blanket of dust cloaking the city this morning. Callers flooded talkback radio, others hit social networking sites and scores of emails were received from smh.com.au readers as Sydney residents expressed their amazement at this morning's conditions.

"It's just red, red, red as far as you can see," one caller at the Anzac Bridge told 2GB

The fiery haze was the result of the sun hitting the blanket of dust, Bureau of Meteorology senior forecaster Jane Golding said.

"The reason for the dust is we had some really strong winds in the inland areas of NSW and in South Australia for a sustained period yesterday," she said.

"That's lifted a whole lot of dust off the ground because it's quite dry out there, many of those areas are still drought affected."

"I've not seen anything like this before," Ms Golding said.

The reddish haze was expected to fade as the sun got higher in the sky, Ms Golding said. The haze had turned from a crimson red to orange by about 7am, and then faded to yellow by about 7.30am. But it was not known what would happen to the dust.

"This is such an infrequent event ... it's hard to say when the dust will stop."

look. how creepy is that?!

let us all help this world out, shall we?

not again

no. i wont be fortunate about 2010 if i have to experience another long-distance relationship. i cant imagine myself without him and his hysterical hyper-active attitude like he had 173 cans of red bull. he's one unusual boy that covers up every of my dreadful day. i will miss him badly. please stay?

wow, it's that near?

30 days to finals and my studies are mother fucking screwed. i wish i could be like Billy Madison. my laziness has to end right here at this very moment im typing this. late night out could wait til im done with high school. im not falling for any temp, so fuck off. im working out on memorizing stuff that my brain would hardly accept but im not stupid. that is one thing i am smart enough to know. good luck, Tasha.

oh, i walked a lot yesterday. kota kinabalu felt like new york city despite all the fact that it is not.

'07

anu

OUR FUTURE CHILD PSYCHIATRIST

i am screwed

weird, but i am actually afraid to face the finals. yes, i may look "i don't give a single shit about it" but to be honest, i am screwed. fuck exams, or spm they call it. revising mathematics is the sickest. i hate formulas, i hate numbers. i cant cope with em but im just doing this for the sake of getting a better life with my mother. i know im not a genius like you girls in upper class such as pure science, but at least pass with credits will do. it's not more than three months til im done with all this education shit with stupid uniforms, bloody routine and fucking ordinances that i have been through for years and hello 2010 of absolute J-O-Y!

three years

im livin' my life with this boy right here :)

200720082009

"i always think about how you looked at me and your gaya yang bingung2." -Rainier

are you a boy? cause i cant tell

i actually respect people that are not straight, but i hate hypocrites that refer their partner as "the opposite gender" and i do also hate people that refer them selves as "the opposite gender", too. no offense but through experiences, try to think about how God created us at the first place. tell me if im wrong.



message to earth; please don't die too soon. :(

since i still have nothing to say

i miss you again, little dude. :(

at least i don't think like you others

you hate misunderstandings. because why? you think that people will never understand you. let's just put it this way, chill a little and listen to the other side and get over with your fucking ego and spill your tears out. no, im not just talking about you, im talking about each everyone of you. you, have a heart and appreciate. you, have a heart and shit those money out. you, have a heart and put a smile on. no, our family was not cursed. fucking stop being superstitious and make a move. even a slight move will prove a change. at least i don't think like you others.

team Chuck

if anyone would to ask what do i want for christmas, is it weird if i want this shirt below? well i dont care cause im fucking team Chuck. BOHOOO~ xoxo.

selfish

i sometimes do not think about others and that made my self as a selfish girl that care about nothing but her self, but being selfish atleast brought my self to think and care alot more about others. if someone is being selfish, tell it off to them as you will lead her(or him) to be a better person.

my mom and boyfriend met

first and second day of raya was rather disappointing. except the fact where Rain and mom met. mom liked Rain alot. and that's one thing anyone would ever wanted from their parents and im glad. ;)

16th September 2009//sunset.